We all feel. As long as you are alive, you feel. Whether you choose to express them in the moment or consider them before you expose yourself, or wear them proudly as a badge of honor or hide them carefully or simply numb them as much as your heart will allow – if you are breathing, you are feeling.
For months, I’ve convinced myself that these feelings I’ve been carrying was weakness- until last night when I realized that I was not weak for falling- on the contrary; I was strong.
You see.. a strong woman doesn’t just simply fall.
She tumbles, she collapses, she plummets, she slips, and she does a complete nose-dive off of her sturdy cliff that she has been clinging onto for so long.
This does not make me weak- it’s the exact opposite of weak. When a strong woman falls, she may fully give herself away, but she is in full knowledge of what she is doing and she embraces it like fire.
See, a strong woman doesn’t fall often. But when a strong woman falls, she completely lets go.
When a strong woman falls for another, she will give everything of herself to that person. This isn’t because she does not know how to handle her emotions. This is because she cares so much for you beyond herself that she is willing to give up pieces of her just to bring comfort to you. She knows that in order to be comfortable with you, she is going to have to learn to become comfortable with emotions that she wasn’t so close with before.
When a strong woman falls, she will say it bluntly, but beautifully. She won’t deny her feelings for you, she won’t hide anything in her mind, but she will know the right times to say how she feels for you. She will be heard, but she won’t be overly stated. When a strong woman falls, she will find every way to tell she loves you even without saying it.
When a strong woman falls, she will want to get to know everyone in your life, merely for the sheer fact she wants to make the people in your life just as happy as she wants you to be. She will go out of her way to learn the smallest details about them and give them as much love as she gives you.
When a strong woman is falling for you, you will feel it.
But you won’t just feel it simply. That would be too easy. It will somehow feel easy and overwhelmingly joyous at the same time. It will feel like someone has cared for you in no possible way that anyone else ever could or would and It will consume you in the most beautiful of ways.
You will see it in her eyes, in the way she looks at you like you are perfection, accepting the impurities in you she embraces.
And when she falls, you will simply, just know. It won’t feel forced. It won’t feel calculated. It won’t feel possessive.
But, it will feel like rediscovering a life you may have never thought you needed.